#12. “You are much stronger than you think. You just have to tap into it.”
There is an abyss that exists in my mind.
I have been there.
It is a place of darkness, unimaginable hopelessness , shock, denial, fear…but most of all, it is empty.
It is nothingness with the relentless power to end you as you know you and your life as you know it.
You try to move…..you can’t.
Cold reality has its grip on you so tight, it is easier to succumb to it, than it is to fight.
The ground you walked on crumbles under you and the only way to go is down.
You bounce around in the tunnel of blackness, empty headed.
There is no mercy here. You surrender to the unidentified force that surrounds you.
Nothing else means a thing. This place is center stage and you are the audience tied to your seat.
Nothing moves. Nothing cares.
You are still.
Sometimes there is more strength in stillness, in silence.
Sometimes what we don’t do is stronger than what we do.
Sometimes our strength is not about our stamina, courage or our energy.
Sometimes……it comes from the faintest whisper in our mind, the weakest part of our sanity……the dimmest light.
Sometimes we can only find enough strength to extend one tired and desperate hand
……and hold on.